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Friendship, an over biased comfort for one's social life. It's a means to feel like you're socially adept by knowing and relating to other individuals you meet and come to call your "friends". I mean, you think you're socially secure when you have multiple friendships but the only question now is are friendships worth keeping? How many let downs does it take to end a friendship? I used to be weak, letting my so-called "friends" walk all over me but if I gave them up, my low confidence would result in clinical depression. Years later, high self-esteem kicks in and has something to say for itself and that is letting go of friendships results in more confidence and maturity. It shows that you don't let the wolves eat the lambs. You are the lion and your den is your social life. You only let important people into it and you keep the bad ones out.
As a child, having a friend was similar to having another sibling. It was someone who you could go out and play football or share your toys with. Growing into a teenager presented more difficulties with friends as it became a social competition to gain friends and intimidate your enemies with your ever growing popularity. As adults, friends are people who can give you an outside opinion from your family's. You build a sense of trust around specific people you meet and you'd like to think that they have mutual feelings of respect. You can always weave out the childlike aspects of adult relationships though. It's always the one-sided relationships that are the most obvious. You're always the one making the calls, setting up the dates and times, and lastly, you have a slight sliver of hope and trust within yourself that your contact will even show up but you always keep room for disappointment. No matter what, you always expect the phone call with the excuse. "Hey, I'm sorry but something came up." or "I'm not feeling too well, I'll call you another time." At first, you always expect that person to call again later on in the week but after more failed attempts to get together with your friend, you realize that you've been the big baboon all along.
However, there is always that one day that your "pal" shows up. You usually have a fun time but you always kind of wonder if they're hanging out with you out of spite and/or remorse or if they actually wanted to. The solution? There is no use in thinking about people who are of lesser social value than you are! The biggest let down is the fact that you aren't spending time with other people who care. Instead, you are trying so desperately to justify a one way friendship that you shouldn't have in the beginning. |
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